My McJob

So, the most depressing thing to do right now is search for a new job. In fact it is so depressing that I finally gave up on the traditional 9-5 and started looking for anything that would pay enough.  Even with the widening of options the job hunt was still not all that effective. Eventually I decided to swallow the pride and call good old Regal, and of course they were hiring mangers. So, joy I am back at the movie theatre with about as much enthusiasm as one has to go to the dentist for a wisdom tooth extraction. As much as I don't want to be there there is a little silver lining; such as getting to spend the days with Logan (so far I've been scheduled only closing shifts) and there is a definite paycheck coming in. 

So I decided to call this post "My McJob" because I was talking to somebody who was in the same position as me and had to go back to working at McDonalds, which he called his McJob. I thought it was clever and appropriate for my position and decided to go with it. I'm still looking for other things and hope to find something better soon. I also like to add this to my list of why I want to leave NC.

We've been in Charlotte for a little over two years now and it still doesn't feel like home. I really wish it was easy to pick up and move to California, which still feels very much like home. I miss it so much and am dying to go back there. I miss seeing my family everyday and being part of their lives. I hate that I have a little niece and nephew who I don't get to watch grow up. It also stinks that Logan has cousins that he is never going to know all that well. I also hate that my dad and sisters are yet to meet Logan. Every time I see pictures of family events I get so homesick and wish so hard that I can be with them. I hate not being able to have my mom here, to help teach me how to take care of the baby. I never realized how much I would hate to miss out on that mother daughter bonding experience. It also stinks not being close to my sisters. Now that we are all at a place in our lives that are somewhat leading down the same path I'm not there to travel along with them.

Phillip is good but trying to understand how I feel. It's not as hard for him since his whole family followed him up here, but he does try. He has offered to try out a move in a couple years, but we'll see. It won't be to easy to move to a place where the cost of living is double of what you're used to. Logically and financially it would be best to stay here so I'll keep trying to make it "home."